tapos na ang evidence midterms (i kinda feel bad about it…that’s actually an understatement) and 2 weekends of bar ops + lsg initiatives here & there + work stuff for sir dondon. i feel like a lot of things have cropped up, medyo nawala ako sa focus at na-neglect ang mga duties ko. na-deprioritize ang mga dapat i-prioritize…
feeling ko sabog ako…i just realized am not putting first things first…that’s why i need to prioritize my relationship with God by beginning my everyday with time spent with Him in prayer & meditatingon His word. grabe, sabog talaga ako pag wala yon (even though i may seem fine to some, harassed and confused ako deep inside…reactive instead of proactive). pag may issue / thing to do, dapat i-cover kaagad in prayer to seek His guidance & wisdom. from there, gawa ako ng sked / to-do for the day / priorities for the week & ask for His blessings & for success by claiming His promises.
hindi ito nangangahulugan na dapat bawasan ko ang panahon para kay mike, para sa family (esp sa lola ko…na medyo di ko na nakakakwentuhan, ok na pala kami. . yey, thank God!), acads, RA work for sir dondon, RA work for sir danicon, LSG, portia, boarding house business and what-not. (after bar ops, ayusin ko talaga ang sked ko in such a way na makakapag-church choir ulit ako…at makapag-bible study naman kami ni mike sa YA.
wala lang, yun lang. i miss God & i miss spending more time with Him. He’s my anchor. i really need Him in my life, i acknowledge that i am nothing without Him. sumasabog ang mga bagay-bagay at feeling sabog din ako without Him. as for the things I can’t do / have no power over, ayoko na rin mag-struggle about them. let go & let God na.
so that’s what i’m gonna do muna after this blog entry. then gawa na ng reflection paper for nego. research for stuff about virata & fabella for sir dondon & company’s technocracy project. then aral for locgov. kaya ito! go na! 🙂