I know she meant well, I don’t take offense with what she said naman. But I felt bad lang, kasi, alam mo yung parang from a euphoric feeling na na-answer ang prayers namin, Medyo nagiging okay na ako now, but I just felt kinda olats kanina. Alam mo yung mga times na na-f-f-feel mo yung disparity between the life you envisioned when you were younger vs the life that you’re now living? Although alam mo, habang tntype ko ‘tong email na ‘to, medyo nahihimasmasan ako…wala na akong magagawa sa past choices, but what matters is what I make out of the future, by God’s grace. Dapat hindi mawala ang thankful spirit within me.
Oftentimes kasi, due to our impulsive nature, we tend to jump into choices which are not necessarily bad, but are not necessarily the best either. Naisip ko nga, pride din siguro (in the form of self-sufficiency), yung we tend to lean on our own understanding in past decisions. But from there, we learn all the more to trust in Him in the face of decisions (it really is a moment by moment choice, malingat ka lang, maaring maligaw).
Inspite kasi of our tendencies and past decisions, I am confident that, with God’s grace, we will overcome (we already are overcoming!). I’m claiming yung nasa Romans 8:28 (one of my favorite verses), yung “And in all these we know that God works for the good of those who love Him, and who work according to His purpose.” So, siguro the more pivotal questions / issues are: Do we love Him? (How much? How do we show Him that we love Him?) Are we working according to His purpose?
I came across an email last night. It contained a quote: “The will of God will not take you where the grace of God will not protect you.” Na-comfort ako sobra, ginawa kong status message sa facebook. 🙂
This morning naman, my devotional was about God’s mercy despite previous wrong choices, and it centered around Psalm 51, David’s psalm after he committed murder and adultery. There, he asked God to create in him a pure heart, renew a steadfast spirit within him, and restore the joy of his salvation. Like David, I’m also praying that prayer for us. I’m resolving, too, to listen more to God’s voice of truth, and shun out the enemy and his attacks.
Hope we have a really nice, productive day today! (lalo na, I need to make up, di ako masyadong productive yday, na-distract kasi).