thanks to “everythingwillbeokoy” (hello, hello!), i realized that i haven’t blogged for almost three months now. upon realizing that, i began to ask myself the reason for the hiatus, only to realize that i have been struggling with some internal issues in the past three months. these issues could be summed up in an acronym of sorts that i just made up: HaTeD, which is H for humility, T for trust and D for dependence on God. i realized that i have been, wrongly, running (and thinking) ahead of Him, worried instead of trusting Him and was even beginning to think more “highly” of myself than I ought to (e.g. feeling ko naman, ang bait2x ko), when really, i had a lot of secret, unconfessed sins. na-realize ko na palagi ko na lang issues yon…i really need God to fix my heart, because i know i can’t.
but thank God that it’s never too late, and thank God that His grace is ever abundant. hubby & i attended the 10am service in Fort Bonifacio Evangelical Church (FABEC) yesterday, where Pastor Dan’s message was about the habit of confession. with the message in mind, i had a one-on-one session with the Lord yesterday, after our women’s guild officers’ meeting and fellowship. the verses that struck me yesterday, and still ring loudly in my ears right now are these:
This then is how we know that we belong to the truth, and how we set our hearts at rest in his presence whenever our hearts condemn us. For God is greater than our hearts, and he knows everything. – 1 John3:19-20
praise God indeed because He is greater than my heart!
i actually want to blog more, because after not having blogged for almost three months, obviously, i’ve a lot to write. haha. but it’s already 6pm and i still have to answer a partner’s query. although it’s not an urgent one, i believe i already have to address it because i have another deadline tomorrow. till next time! 🙂