Inner Healing

Unmasking Jezebel Part 3 

This was actually so helpful. The testimonies felt like they were mine. I didn’t even know that there was a name for what I was going through. Thank God for humbling me and restoring not just my marriage but also my ability to love and cleave to my husband. Thank God for His grace…for allowing me to repent before and all over again now.

It also explains my struggles with my parents and some of my bosses…sometimes acted out, sometimes hidden. Oh, Lord, I repent and don’t want to have anything to do with that anymore. I repent for the pride, Lord.

The prayer of repentance in the video also helped wrap up the things I repented of in the past season. Thankful for the assurance that God has restored and continues to be faithful in the process of restoring my soul. In Jesus, I am excellent of soul, I am the healed of the Lord.

Oh, Lord, help me walk out the healing and restoration. I want to truly walk out the excellence of soul that you have given me in the spirit. 

Watch “Jennifer Eivaz – Healing the Jezebel Afflicted Soul – The LIFT Women’s Conference 2015” on YouTube

sermon notes

The Holy Spirit 

One of the best, most comforting messages I’ve heard. Thank you, Lord, for Your Holy Spirit, who lives inside of me:

Christ has redeemed us from the curse of the law, having become a curse for us (for it is written, “Cursed is everyone who hangs on a tree”), that the blessing of Abraham might come upon the Gentiles in Christ Jesus, that we might receive the promise of the Spirit through faith. – Galatians 3:13‭-‬14 NKJV

  • No matter how good you are, there will always be some law that you cannot accomplish. But Jesus fulfilled all laws. Trust in what Jesus has already finished for you. Every single one of us who believed has been redeemed from the curse of the law, that we (Gentiles)
  • Faith is the hand that reaches out to what God is giving us by His grace. We grab hold to this reality: the promise of the Spirit, which He releases to every single person who believes. When God gives a promise, He backs it up to the hilt. 
  • Sin cannot stand in the glorious presence of God. For those who believed in Him, He changed the nature inside of us. Jesus gives us all the nature of Himself. He does not withhold from us. 
  • You and I were not good, but Jesus came anyway. That we may receive life so other people can taste and see the goodness of God in our lives. 

And I will pray the Father, and He will give you another Helper, that He may abide with you forever—  the Spirit of truth, whom the world cannot receive, because it neither sees Him nor knows Him; but you know Him, for He dwells with you and will be in you. – John 14:16‭-‬17 NKJV

  • Why another helper? Because Jesus, when He was on the earth was helping them understand what it was like to be loved by the Father, what it’s like in Heaven. 
  • Alos paracletos = another just like Jesus, as if He was walking with them every single day, identical in the way He does and speaks things, and will be inside every single Believer
  • Able to do what He could do…greater works than what He is doing, because we have the Holy Spirit inside of us. The Holy Spirit reminds you of Jesus. 
  • Understand who it is who lives in you. Actually have a relationship with the One who lives in you. He is in a permanent relationship in you, because He has taken up residence in every single person who believes in Jesus.
  • Identical in the way Jesus thinks, speaks, operates. Jesus has made you His home. He is with you forever. He will never leave you. 
  • Even though you don’t see him with your natural senses, the spirit of God will never lie to you.

7 Characteristics of the Holy Spirit:

And I will ask the Father, and He will give you another Comforter (Counselor, Helper, Intercessor, Advocate, Strengthener, and Standby), that He may remain with you forever– The Spirit of Truth, Whom the world cannot receive (welcome, take to its heart), because it does not see Him or know and recognize Him. But you know and recognize Him, for He lives with you [constantly] and will be in you. I will not leave you as orphans [comfortless, desolate, bereaved, forlorn, helpless]; I will come [back] to you. – John 14:16‭-‬18 AMPC

1. Comforter –  helps you feel secure, brings stability in life, where you find rest

  • God did not call us to be comfortable because we’re ever increasing, but God does and we trust Him. We have a comforter that will cause us to always be at rest in Him, as He is in the inside of us.

But the Comforter (Counselor, Helper, Intercessor, Advocate, Strengthener, Standby), the Holy Spirit, Whom the Father will send in My name [in My place, to represent Me and act on My behalf], He will teach you all things. And He will cause you to recall (will remind you of, bring to your remembrance) everything I have told you. – John 14:26 AMPC

  • There’s a comforter that has already gone before.
  • The more we hear with fresh ears, faith gets built up in the inside of us: who He is in us, who He is before us. 

Peace I leave with you; My [own] peace I now give and bequeath to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Do not let your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid. [Stop allowing yourselves to be agitated and disturbed; and do not permit yourselves to be fearful and intimidated and cowardly and unsettled.] – John 14:27 AMPC

  • There’s a peace when you’re not fearful, when you’re in that comforter. 
  • You have a choice to believe that the greater One lives inside of you. 
  • The comforter brings that ease. We don’t have to be fearful or unsettled. Choose to believe Him and Him alone.

2. Counselor – advise, teach, because it is a life of discovery

  • The enemy causes us to be fearful, worried and agitated 

But when He, the Spirit of Truth (the Truth-giving Spirit) comes, He will guide you into all the Truth (the whole, full Truth). For He will not speak His own message [on His own authority]; but He will tell whatever He hears [from the Father; He will give the message that has been given to Him], and He will announce and declare to you the things that are to come [that will happen in the future]. – John 16:13 AMPC

  • No lies. We don’t want to have any deception. 
  • The Holy Spirit comes with the word, He comes with illumination. He gives you things to come. The message released to Him: to testify of the Son
  • The Holy Spirit speaks of the Son (not His own message)

He will honor and glorify Me, because He will take of (receive, draw upon) what is Mine and will reveal (declare, disclose, transmit) it to you. Everything that the Father has is Mine. That is what I meant when I said that He [the Spirit] will take the things that are Mine and will reveal (declare, disclose, transmit) it to you. – John 16:14‭-‬15 AMPC

  • The Holy Spirit will speak the word to you. He wants you to know so you can hold it in your hands. What does He want you to know?

that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of glory, may give to you the spirit of wisdom and revelation in the knowledge of Him, the eyes of your understanding being enlightened; that you may know what is the hope of His calling, what are the riches of the glory of His inheritance in the saints, and what is the exceeding greatness of His power toward us who believe, according to the working of His mighty power – Ephesians 1:17‭-‬19 NKJV

  • When you know it, you can walk it out, you can live it out.

3. Helper – comes running when you cry out for help

  • The hands that helps lift you out of the mess that you’re in. We rely on His ability, not our own. 

God is our refuge and strength, A very present help in trouble. – Psalms 46:1 NKJV

  • 24/7, He gives you His full attention

Let your character or moral disposition be free from love of money [including greed, avarice, lust, and craving for earthly possessions] and be satisfied with your present [circumstances and with what you have]; for He [God] Himself has said, I will not in any way fail you nor give you up nor leave you without support. [I will] not, [I will] not, [I will] not in any degree leave you helpless nor forsake nor let [you] down (relax My hold on you)! [Assuredly not!] [Josh. 1:5.] – Hebrews 13:5 AMPC

  • Because His Spirit resides in the inside of you. 
  • You are still the righteousness of God. It cannot be changed even though you mess up.

So we take comfort and are encouraged and confidently and boldly say, The Lord is my Helper; I will not be seized with alarm [I will not fear or dread or be terrified]. What can man do to me? [Ps. 27:1;118:6.] – Hebrews 13:6 AMPC

  • He ia a very present help in times of trouble, even if you don’t call out His name. But when you call out the name of Jesus, you will be saved. Delivered. 
  • When you call out His name, His Spirit rises up on the inside of you. 
  • Death cannot hold Him. It has no hold on you. 

4. Intercessor –  stands in the gap, declares the will of God in the earth. 

  • The Holy Spirit helps us to pray when we don’t know what to pray about

Romans 8:25-29 (The Voice)

  • The Holy Spirit comes in to align our lives, gives us instructions to turn back and go the way we should
  • The confidence is not in our own ability, but that  He is more than able to orchestrate His plan. We align our lives according to His purpose and plan. The world can see who is in you, that you are changed and transformed 

5. Advocate –  legal counsel, fights on another’s behalf. 

  • Jesus is our advocate in Heaven. The Holy Spirit is our advocate on earth.
  • The Holy Spirit as our advocate declares who you are based on what Jesus has done. You have value because I love you. You are seated above every power.

So, what do you think? With God on our side like this, how can we lose? If God didn’t hesitate to put everything on the line for us, embracing our condition and exposing himself to the worst by sending his own Son, is there anything else he wouldn’t gladly and freely do for us? And who would dare tangle with God by messing with one of God’s chosen? Who would dare even to point a finger? The One who died for us—who was raised to life for us!—is in the presence of God at this very moment sticking up for us. Do you think anyone is going to be able to drive a wedge between us and Christ’s love for us? There is no way! Not trouble, not hard times, not hatred, not hunger, not homelessness, not bullying threats, not backstabbing, not even the worst sins listed in Scripture: They kill us in cold blood because they hate you. We’re sitting ducks; they pick us off one by one. None of this fazes us because Jesus loves us. I’m absolutely convinced that nothing—nothing living or dead, angelic or demonic, today or tomorrow, high or low, thinkable or unthinkable—absolutely nothing can get between us and God’s love because of the way that Jesus our Master has embraced us.

Romans 8:31‭-‬39 MSG

  • God wants to lavish His abundance on you.
  • Don’t live in condemnation when you understand who is on the inside of us

6. Strengthener – supplies the strength from the inside out

  • We rely on His ability. He is never tired, He is never weak

 And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. – II Corinthians 12:9 NKJV

  • His strength overshadows and energizes you. He is our fortress 

[Not in your own strength] for it is God Who is all the while effectually at work in you [energizing and creating in you the power and desire], both to will and to work for His good pleasure and satisfaction and delight. – Philippians 2:13 AMPC

  • Effectually at work – effective 
  • He gives you both the power and desire, all the while energizing you. It will not get to a point where you just want to quit and give up.
  • Now is not the time to give up. Just keep on keeping on. 

For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind. – II Timothy 1:7 NKJV

  • Power – dynamic, dunamis power beginning within you
  • Love is the strongest force, put Jesus on the Cross and made Him stay there. God’s love is ever-giving. The greatest demonstration of God’s love is the Cross
  • Sound mind – mastery, soundness and peace will come

7. Our Standby – always available, especially in emergencies. 

  • Always relied on, will supply all your needs, will take your place when needed. Will do an action for you. 
  • Like a generator, but the Holy Spirit doesn’t wait for the lights to go out. His power is always running. 
  • You can always lean on your entire human personality on Him

Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us, to Him be glory in the church by Christ Jesus to all generations, forever and ever. Amen. – Ephesians 3:20‭-‬21 NKJV

  • God always brings things to completion. He doesn’t do things halfway.
  • The Holy Spirit who’s on the inside of you as a Believer
  • So you will not be moved where you are.
  • Will always stand by your side
  • He will never ever fail you.
  • He is the One who is inside you. 
  • A dying world outside needs to see the One who lives inside of you.

Live and love in the Spirit

The challenge in moving in a body of Christ ministry is the test of walking in love and unity, amidst differences.  When I woke up this morning, God put a verse in my heart, which reminded, rebuked and encouraged me:

If you’ve gotten anything at all out of following Christ, if his love has made any difference in your life, if being in a community of the Spirit means anything to you, if you have a heart, if you care — then do me a favor: Agree with each other, love each other, be deep-spirited friends. Don’t push your way to the front; don’t sweet-talk your way to the top. Put yourself aside, and help others get ahead. Don’t be obsessed with getting your own advantage. Forget yourselves long enough to lend a helping hand. Think of yourselves the way Christ Jesus thought of himself. He had equal status with God but didn’t think so much of himself that he had to cling to the advantages of that status no matter what. Not at all. When the time came, he set aside the privileges of deity and took on the status of a slave, became human !  Having become human, he stayed human. It was an incredibly humbling process. He didn’t claim special privileges. Instead, he lived a selfless, obedient life and then died a selfless, obedient death—and the worst kind of death at that—a crucifixion. Because of that obedience, God lifted him high and honored him far beyond anyone or anything, ever, so that all created beings in heaven and on earth—even those long ago dead and buried—will bow in worship before this Jesus Christ, and call out in praise that he is the Master of all, to the glorious honor of God the Father. What I’m getting at, friends, is that you should simply keep on doing what you’ve done from the beginning. When I was living among you, you lived in responsive obedience. Now that I’m separated from you, keep it up. Better yet, redouble your efforts. Be energetic in your life of salvation, reverent and sensitive before God. That energy is God’s energy, an energy deep within you, God himself willing and working at what will give him the most pleasure. Do everything readily and cheerfully—no bickering, no second-guessing allowed! Go out into the world uncorrupted, a breath of fresh air in this squalid and polluted society. Provide people with a glimpse of good living and of the living God. Carry the light-giving Message into the night so I’ll have good cause to be proud of you on the day that Christ returns. You’ll be living proof that I didn’t go to all this work for nothing. – Philippians 2:1‭-‬16 MSG


Restored Communion

Transcribing a word of knowledge given by the Lord through a dear friend from my CRL and LGI families. Synchs so much with the picnic dream!: 

The big picture God is giving in a vision: I’m just staring at God face to face. It’s like a first communion, and I’m wearing a dress. (She didn’t share the color, but my impression is it’s white. White as snow, as the Lord, has cleansed me)

Meaning: There are new things that God is ushering in into my life.  Whatever was there, it was cancelled already.  My communion with God, my relationship with God is restored and renewed.

Continue with what I’m doing now. Whenever asked for help, I help. (Hindi naghahabol.) They are the ones coming to me for help, and I help. 

There is a new joy in me that God is ushering. It is a joy from being released, from being free.

God is opening new doors for me to step into. New opportunities.
1. God wants to assure me of my forgiveness and my righteousness in Him. Whatever was in the past is in the past. Jesus has cancelled these things.
2. I am focusing on my career. There are many more things that God is opening in terms of my career. Ministry is on the side, it’s not the main thing. There is a new chapter that God is opening in my life. New things are coming. Don’t be unnecessarily burdened. God is protecting me from unnecessary concern and anxieties. They just come to me and I just say my peace.
3. Career – There is a new thing that God is opening up. Be ready and prepared in terms of this area of my life.

The promise of God: unending joy. Do not be afraid that it will be taken away from you. No matter what happens my joy is complete.

Thank You, Lord, for the blessed assurance! I am Yours and You are mine! I am free! All glory to God!


Picnic with THE Boss

The dream:  I was in a picnic with my boss, and we shared a toast with a goblet of wine each. (End of dream)

I had a happy feeling when I woke up. I felt some release over an issue I was struggling with in the past 4 days. 😊


  • Inputs

My boss represents God the Father and God the Son

Wine represents the Holy Spirit

I believe it’s also no accident that the song currently playing on my spotify playlist, as I type is this (and that my current spotify playlist contains songs about the power of the blood of Jesus):

  • Summary:

The dream is an invitation to intimacy from the Triune God.  God intends and desires casual and relaxed fellowship with me, a pleasurable and personal communion.  It is an invitation to a place of intimacy with the Father and Jesus, where He reveals His secrets.  His leadership over me is natural (flowing) and spiritual (powerful, in the spirit).  In this communion, the Holy Spirit releases the overflowing oil of joy (the joy of my salvation, of taking refuge in Him), a table of prosperity / plenty, and blessings in the presence of my enemies: a heavy heart (under the deception and influence / condemnation of  the spirit of religion, which is but a substitute for God that leads to the wrath for fornication with the world).  His blood has changed my story.  He wants to assure me of His promise that I shall taste and see His goodness, in the land of the living and beyond. Thank God for His grace!

Yes, I want this, Lord, this intimate fellowship with You, for more of You, is the desire of my heart.  Thank You for Your blood, Jesus, that redeems, that has changed my story.  Every sin, every scar, covered now by the blood of Jesus, reaching far, reaching wide every place I tried to hide! Your goodness, Your mercy, Your loving-kindness endures forever, Lord!  Thank You for fighting for me.  I claim Your victory. 


Waging War

Unmasking Jezebel Part II

I continued to read this book last night as my bedtime reading:

As I continued to read, these pages really caught my eye:

I realized, whoa. All of those were happening to me, exposed last year. But God. 

Thank God, He intervened. If He didn’t intervene, perhaps it could have progressed and matured to disqualify me from claiming His promises. Perhaps the accusation did have an ounce of truth to it. But the bigger truth is: God has changed my heart. Thank God for His grace, for His pursuit of me. It’s now all covered by the blood of Jesus! Hallelujah! 

I realize now, perhaps the message with the prayer was allowed by the Lord to remind me to continue walking out the freedom He has given me. Control and manipulation no longer have no place in my life and my ways. Offense and insubordination have been cleansed out of my heart. 

Des strength may be made perfect. May I just be so hidden in Jesus, may He be seen instead of me. 

Waging War

Unmasking Jezebel Part I

The other day, I received this

I replied thusly

I asked the Lord to search my heart and asked for prayers, as well. 

At first, the Jezebel “accusation” caused panic, fear and confusion in me. I began to be more sensitive to voices that were quick to point out faults in other people, even tempting me to say something about the matter. I heard voices prompting sabotage of plans…I no longer listened to what the plans actually were. 

For a day, it caused paranoia, triggering thoughts such “they’re thinking this about you…they’re thinking you actually have it”. It made me doubt myself and my motives, even as I responded to PMs, group chats and posted on social media, especially when what I’d write was related to a women’s ministry that I’m currently involved with.

Everytime the whispers came, I’d tell on them to the Lord, “Lord, I’m hearing that again. Lord, help. Lord, I want to be used and work for Your purposes alone.” (Is there an English word for sumbong?). It was so difficult to concentrate at work. 

As I prayed in the office yesterday, the Lord downloaded a few bullet points that helped combat the accusations and silence the voices. (As I type, write now, the Holy Spirit seems to be amplifying the points. I believe He is also answering my prayer this morning. Thank You, Lord!):

1. If a ministry (or pursuit) consumes your thoughts and is quickly becoming the source of your worth, it is quickly becoming an idol. 

2. Detach your heart from the ministry (or anything) if it gets to a point that it consumes your thoughts and becomes your source of worth. Hold it loosely. I should consume your mind. Refocus on Me. Lay it down before Me. 

3. Remember where your worth comes from…it comes from Me. You are extremely precious in My eyes. You are My pearl of great price. You were the joy set before me, why I endured scorn and shame on the Cross. I am in You and our Heavenly Father sees Me in you. 

Lay down your “right” to be appreciated or regarded well at the foot of the Cross. 

As you ascribe worth to Me, I will remind you of your worth in Me. Worship, worship. Go deeper in worship.

5. Before engaging in anything, ask yourself why you are (or will be) doing it. Ask Me to purify your thoughts, your motives. I cleanse them with My blood. I wash them with My Word. 

6. Remember your identity in Me. I am the One who declares who you are. I formed you, I know you full well. Declare it, declare who you are in Me. Declare your allegiance to Me. 

No one can snatch you out of the palm of My hand. No one can separate you from the love of the Father in Me. 

7. Your marching orders, your direction comes from Me alone. Pay no attention to the other voices. They may be in the background, in the periphery, but stop listening to them. You are My sheep, and you know My voice. I am training you to discern My voice better apart from the rest.

After receiving those points, I declared and affirmed out loud who I am in Christ and declared that my allegiance belongs to Him alone. I began to worship and sing of how His goodness, His faithfulness, His mercy lasts forever and continued to be in a posture of worship in my heart until sleep came. I felt His light flood my heart and my being. Praise Jesus!

I believe God just downloaded a strategy to combat Jezebel accusations, witchcraft and/or promptings from the enemy. 

One thing that has been emphasized to me in the midst of all this: no one who is being used by the Lord is exempt. Hence the importance of refocusing our gaze on Jesus, affirming Him as THE vision, co-laboring with Him as he guards our hearts and straining to hear His voice amidst the noise. It is a moment by moment thing. 

Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil walks about like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour. Resist him, steadfast in the faith, knowing that the same sufferings are experienced by your brotherhood in the world. But may the God of all grace, who called us to His eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after you have suffered a while, perfect, establish, strengthen, and settle you.  To Him be the glory and the dominion forever and ever. Amen. – I Peter 5:8‭-‬11 NKJV