exactly a week ago, while attending a midweek service, i felt God ask me, “will you still love me if you don’t pass the bar exams?” nakakahiya man aminin, i struggled with the answer. then, a realization dawned on me: how could i not love Him, when He first loved me, and will continue to love me no matter what?…when He will always love me more than anyone can? even more than i could ever love Him as well? one thing we know for sure, although we don’t know exactly what the future holds, is that He loves us very, very much.
i praise God when i see and feel how He gives strength to those who are weary and because His grace is always sufficient. He did just that for me when I was feeling so down and unsure of myself. He continues to be my confidence.
“success” is a very relative concept. i remember before in conversations with my bar buddies, we said na the best outcome of the review is that is brought us closer to God. in His eyes (and also in mine), regardless of the outcome, we had achieved that success. kebs kung ano isipin ng ibang tao, it’s God’s opinion that matters naman talaga. 🙂 sabi nga, more important than the destination is the journey.
one thing i realized din in the past few days, mahirap gawing “end-all-and-be-all” ang bar exams, or anything temporal for that matter. kasi kung ganun, once we achieve that thing, we may stop seeking God and His will with the same intensity as we had before when we were still working towards that goal. kaya dapat talaga, eternal ang ating perspective palagi. indeed, when we fix our eyes on Jesus, the things of earth grow strangely dim in the light of His glory and grace (as a hymn goes).
though i’m happy for myself, my heart also aches for those whose results were not that favorable. inspite of that, like them, i trust in God’s heart – that He is too wise to be mistaken and too good to be unkind. this morning during my quiet time, i came across these verses and thought of a few friends whom i’ve been praying for:
“Blessed are those whose strength is in you, who have set their hearts on pilgrimage. As they pass through the Valley of Baca, they make it a place of springs; the autumn rains also cover it w/ pools. They go from strength to strength, till each appears before God in Zion.” (Psalm 84:5-7).
you may be passing through a valley right now, but because your strength is in God, you go from strength to strength, and you make your “valley” a place of springs. you flourish while in it, and in so doing, give glory and praise to God. 🙂